different...

I have such an interesting and unique personality... just like everyone else.

I do not have time to rest, relax and enjoy myself.
I do not know how to let loose.
I do not have a standard fun thing.
I do not have a social life 'so to speak'.
I do not understand what motivation means.
I do not have a random sense of adventure.
I do not like living within people's expectations.

Instead

I join groups with an interesting agenda and enjoy myself at it.

I attend numerous meetings that I learn from. Not wedding committees and such that have a similar agenda with different cast.

I hang out with people whom we have a common goal of sorts, when it differs greatly our paths rarely cross.

I will enjoy the company of just anyone who is trying to get somewhere, the energy is just amazing and will not be too comfortable when they start settling, getting comfortable, and relaxed.

I like freedom a lot, I want to go where I want, do what I want and not do some things by just choice. As much as possible, I try to be where I want/feel like and where I am comfortable. Some take this as being difficult and stubbornness, its not.

I like time outs to think through things, I create them; take a book and find a park to sit and read,within a few moments I get to thinking world.

I enjoy doing just anything with lovely and brilliant company; sit and talk, go for a walk, do household chores, hiking, camping the list is endless. These are not my favorite things, I wouldn't be keen to do any of them with wrong company.

I always look for the purpose in things..even lame reasons (not excuses), as long as there is a reason, am good to go. Several examples follow;

A conversation I recently had with a friend;
Me:Lets go for the meeting
Friend: No, am working late, there's traffic, I hadn't planned to etc you just go.
Me: Nooo lets just go
Friend: you see you had the heart for it, I dont.
Me: Ok, that's a better answer now I understand.

Another I just remembered,a good friend dropped out of school and did not tell me and I found out later and was not very amused for being the last to know.
Me: Why didn't you tell me?
Him: (cant remember answers he gave)... I did not want to talk about it
Me: Why not,yet everyone else knew about it.
Him: Fine cause you really want me to tell you, I will but I will not feel good about myself. (he starts..)
Me : (interrupts)no don't tell me, it's ok, now you don't need to anymore.

This other resulted in a fight, my friend and I decided just to drop it and not because we understood each other.
Friend: I want to join the army
Me: Why, what for?
Friend: (cant remember specifics)..they have good training etc
a lot of back and forth
Me: Why the army?
Friend: Lets just drop it.

A couple of years later,
Friend: You know you think you know me too well but you don't.
Me: Why do you say that?
Friend: Remember when I wanted to join the army, you made it seem as if I couldn't do it, as if you knew what was best for me...but nope you were not right.
Me: What did I say wrong?
Friend: You questioned it a lot as if I did not know what I was doing.
Me: I am very sorry, but that was not the intention. I was looking for a reason.

I am different.

I have such an interesting and unique personality... just like everyone else.